I am very excited to announce that I will be teaching a short-and-sweet photography class in a few weeks! I remember getting my first DSLR several years ago and being overwhelmed with all the buttons and settings. I desperately wanted to take advantage of my camera’s capabilities, but I just didn’t know how. I tried reading the manual and even did some searching online, but I kept hitting roadblocks. It took sitting down with another human being and listening as she explained what ISO, aperture, and shutter speed actually meant. Since then I’ve done a ton of reading and practicing, but I definitely trace back my “Ah HA!” moment to that one-on-one interaction.

I think there are others like me– people that just need the basics explained. I am looking forward to doing just that on April 13th! See below for details and please get in touch if you’d like to reserve your spot!

 

It’s been a long time since I’ve updated. Life has a habit of getting in the way these days. I’m plugging away– working, raising babies, doing laundry, taking photos. Time is moving ahead and spring is coming. I’m thankful for longer days and more light. Both as a photographer and as a mom. I’m excited to be able to play outside again and am looking forward to what warmer weather will bring.

Along those lines, I have some projects I am working on and am very excited about. Stay tuned for more information, especially if you are local! I’ll leave you with one of my favorite recent shots. The boys haven’t been so cooperative lately, so I’ve resigned myself to working with more compliant subjects. Ha!

 

 

January 8, 2013

My heart is heavy tonight, as it seems is often the case these days.

Today I took my two sons to the funeral of their grandmother. Michael’s mother passed away over the Christmas holiday and today we said good-bye. She had been suffering for the past 2 years from ALS, a truly horrible disease. There is some amount of comfort knowing that she is no longer suffering as she once was. And yet, death is always so, so sad. It isn’t how things are meant to be.

It seems that I only write these days when I am sad. It’s just that life is so busy with the details of keeping babies alive, the house clean, food cooked, and work completed. I can go days without thinking of anything more meaningful than when Judah last ate or if Jeremiah has been changed into proper clothes instead of wearing his pajamas all day. And when I do have a few quiet moments to think, I find myself dwelling on the difficult parts of life– wishing them away, wishing for peace and ease and all those blissful years when I was unaware of how broken this world really was.

I have a clear memory of sitting in a Bible study back in 2007– it was a Beth Moore study on “Fruits of the Spirit” put on by a local church. It was one of those studies where you got a workbook and there were five mini-lessons that you were to go through each week. You were supposed to do one every day, but I always found myself doing all five the night before the meeting. We would sit at the same tables and watch Beth on the video screen then talk about what we had written in our workbooks that week. I remember our table-leader, Hannah, saying something that has  played through my mind frequently these last five years. She said that right now, this moment in life, was probably the best it was ever going to get. There we were, girls in our mid-20′s, experiencing a pretty normal life path. Many of us were married or dating, we had jobs/careers to look forward to, children, houses, and hobbies to dream about. None of us had experienced real loss. I remember her saying that she knew there was a day coming where her parents would die. Friends would disappoint her. Her health would fail. And it hit me– this world is not my home. This existence that I’ve carved out for myself where I’m comfortable and happy– it isn’t going to last.

I suppose there’s always been a fair dose of pessimism that colors my outlook on life. I always seem to notice the holes in a plan and find it easy to play “devil’s advocate.” Maybe that’s why Hannah’s comment stuck with me so clearly over the years. It definitely felt like one of those life-defining moments– a sobering, water-in-your-face kind of moment that wakes you up from the dream that has become normal life.There’s no going back. Dumbledore has died, Aslan has been slain, evil exists and bad things happen. Good will triumph in the end, and all the sad things will indeed come un-true, but in the meantime pain and death seem to reign.

I don’t really know what I’m trying to say here. I guess I’m just feeling stripped bare, not sure that I can take much more. So much seems to have been taken away this past year, and truth be told, I am just hoping for spring to come soon, with its promise of new beginnings. And maybe that’s the key– Lewis talks about the seasons and how perfectly they capture our need for rhythm. It feels like it’s been a year of winter but never Christmas… but perhaps that is getting ready to change and the rivers of ice will melt, grass will grow again, and the warmth of the sun will be felt deeply– all the way to my bones.

 

Wow- it’s been a while since I’ve written anything. I guess I have a good excuse… and his name is Judah!

Photo courtesy of Memories by TLC

 

Judah Michael Holm was born on November 30, 2012. He was a big guy (9lb 11oz, 21.5″) and he’s already grown quite a bit. We are adjusting to life with a newborn and, overall, we’re doing pretty well I think.

I spent some of that restless energy at the end of my pregnancy decorating the house for Christmas. In truth, this might be the first year I’ve ever really embraced the holiday spirit. I’m usually put off by how much work it will be to “deck the halls” that the most I can be persuaded to do is make some garland and hang some ornaments from the ceiling. But, having a 2 year old changes things. And knowing that I would be spending a lot of time inside this holiday season nursing an infant, I decided to buy a tree, make some stockings, and generally get in my crafty groove.

The other thing that I am excited about is that I have finally learned how to use my speedlight (on camera flash.) Michael bought me one for my birthday back in August, but the way life has happened at me these last few months (well, this last year really) means that until a few days ago I had only managed to take it out of the box and put the batteries in. But all that changed this week. One of the benefits of having an infant and nursing him all-the-time means that there is lots of time for reading. And so I boned up on all things TTL and was able to finally take some photos inside my house.

I love this house, but it doesn’t have the best light. In fact, the main living area often feels like a cave. I know it’s a waste of energy, but I have all the lights turned on in the living room/dining room every day, all day long. Otherwise it feels very sad and dreary to me. Anyway, this lack of light means that I have always had a hard time taking photos that look halfway decent. But using my speedlight means that I now have a chance to use my camera indoors. Yay!

Here are some photos of my attempts at hall-decking: